Lately, I find myself contemplating what I’m doing with this blog. I’m not a seasoned writer, but I find myself growing better with practice – as well as reading more. There’s times I’ll sit with a sketch for over a month, critiquing, revisiting, even fighting with it.
It surely isn’t for fame, or followers. That has never been a desire of mine. My deepest desires aren’t even for myself, but for those I care about. I lead a peaceful, fulfilling life — one that’s quiet and private.
Though I may share intimate reflections and leave myself vulnerable at times in these sketches, the rest of my life remains intentionally my own. Where I live, what I drive, when I travel — none of that feels important to me to share.
This space isn’t for display.
It’s a place to think out loud.
A kind of meditation — a way to release what moves through me, what sits within me -and give it form.
If you weren’t aware, I’m a self-employed personal chef. I couldn’t be more grateful to be of service to others, doing what I love — cooking. But the nature of it is quiet. There are weeks, sometimes a full month I don’t see the families I cook for. I simply leave their refrigerators stocked, then disappear again — like Santa Claus.
I spend a lot of time alone — but never lonely. I believe that if you feel lonely when you’re alone, you’re in poor company.
Some of my closest companions these days are authors, poets, philosophers — many of whom are no longer here physically. Their words have a way of keeping me company. There are also ducks that visit my pool, they keep me company when I swim.
I’ve become quite terrible at small talk, and awkward at times. Ive made peace with that. Those who truly know me, know I mean well.
I don’t share this seeking sympathy, nor as a cry for anyone to befriend me. It’s simply the truth of how I live.
Perhaps this blog is me raising a flag for others like myself, to know they aren’t alone.
For those who distance themselves from the world’s noise. Those that speak love, health and abundance over themselves and others. The dreamers. The creators. Those who have found peace, and freedom within themselves.
There’s nothing here to prove.
Nothing to sell.
Just a sketch from a man navigating life to the best of my abilities.
Much love, take care.
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